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totally　useless。　I　couldn't　be

around　my　family—I　couldn't　be　around　anyone。　I'm　embarrassed　to　admit　that　I

more　or　less　curled　up

into　a　ball　and　let　the　misery　have　me。〃　He　grinned；　sheepish。　〃It　was　much

more　pathetic　than　hearing

voices。　And；　of　course；　you　know　I　do　that；　too。〃

I　was　deeply　relieved　that　he　really　seemed　to　understand—forted　that　this

all　made　sense　to　him。　At

any　rate；　he　wasn't　looking　at　me　like　I　was　crazy。　He　was　looking　at　me　like

he　loved　me。

〃I　only　heard　one　voice；〃　I　corrected　him。

He　laughed　and　then　pulled　me　tight　against　his　right　side　and　started　to　lead

me　forward。

〃I'm　just　humoring　you　with　this。〃　He　motioned　broadly　with　his　hand　toward

the　darkness　in　front　of　us

as　we　walked。　There　was　something　pale　and　immense　there—the　house；　I

realized。　〃It　doesn't　matter　in

the　slightest　what　they　say。〃

〃This　affects　them　now；　too。〃

He　shrugged　indifferently。

He　led　me　through　the　open　front　door　into　the　dark　house　and　flipped　the

lights　on。　The　room　was　just

as　I'd　remembered　it—the　piano　and　the　white　couches　and　the　pale；　massive

staircase。　No　dust；　no

white　sheets。

Edward　called　out　the　names　with　no　more　volume　than　I'd　use　in　regular

conversation。　〃Carlisle？　Esme？

Rosalie？　Emmett？　Jasper？　Alice？〃　They　would　hear。

Carlisle　was　suddenly　standing　beside　me；　as　if　he'd　been　there　all　along。

〃Wele　back；　Bella。〃　He

smiled。　〃What　can　we　do　for　you　this　morning？　I　imagine；　due　to　the　hour；　that

this　is　not　a　purely　social

visit？〃

I　nodded。　〃I'd　like　to　talk　to　everyone　at　once；　if　that's　okay。　About

so